So! It's been a month since my last post, almost to the day! I apologize for being so absent- I promise I'll get better again! Suddenly, as I was home, my life turned from a series of frequent adventures which I was eager to share with you all into more of a roiling ocean of uncertainty and doubt.
My leg, upon return to the U.S., was thought to be infected. To figure out whether that was the case, I was subject to several different medications, multiple scans, and a series of tests that were quite involved and took over four weeks to fully complete. I was told that I would most likely have to postpone attending university in Chicago, Illinois if the tests came up positive, as I would have to undergo multiple surgeries and washouts.
Praise be to the Lord, the tests all came up negative, and they showed no signs of infection or need for further investigation. (Thank you Jesus!) So, what this means: my life has taken yet another turn, and in a week, I will be completely submerging myself in "college" culture. I'll be right next to the world class city of Chicago, which I plan to explore and adventure in to the maximum, while at the same time having an experience that is known to be unique and irreplaceable. Apparently, from what those wiser than I have said, college lends insight to a certain aspect of life that simply nothing else can.
I am all of a sudden looking at my life from a wholly different perspective; I am wholeheartedly committed to living the life that Jesus wants for me, but am constantly confronted by the fact that I have absolutely no idea where my life is going. I'm continually told not to worry about it, because "I'm young" and "I have time to figure it out", but that is purely and simply not enough for me. If I am able to get myself to a point of "not worrying about it", it will certainly not be due to my age. Who knows how long I have to figure it out? As C. S. Lewis states in his Screwtape Letters: "The man can neither make, nor retain, one moment of time; it all comes to him by pure gift; he might as well regard the sun and moon as as his chattels."
I honestly don't know where my life Is going, or even where Christ will take me in the next couple of years, but I am determined to live my life serving the Lord, no matter when or how or where it takes me. I hope to continue posting about how I go about fulfilling that commitment whilst at college. After that - who knows? No matter what, I hope to include you all on the journey, as I so dearly love and respect you all, and am so grateful towards each one of you for all the support you have lavished me and my family with.
Thank you, as always, and God bless!
Random fact of the post:
I was at the hospital the other day, and while I was limping towards the X-ray wing, a nurse came up behind me and said "Oh wow, you're so tall! Do you play basketball?" And let me just tell you: in that moment, with my boot on my leg, looking down at this smiling nurse, I couldn't help but laugh at my life. I smiled, and said "Used to, but anymore I am too busy jumping out of trees and such. I like to keep things interesting like that." Thank you all again for praying me through this time.
As always, if you'd ever like to get into contact with me, my email address is annawinters5056@gmail.com. God bless.
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